Yesterday I started the awful process of moving again. I giggled as I arrived at Brad and Kate's house with a few suitcases and duffle bags full of clothes, realizing that it was a little like going backwards in time.
I guess I never realized that it's pretty true that sometimes you have to go backwards to go forwards.
You see, about six months ago, I moved out of Brad and Kate's house after a several month stay in their lovely home. They are two of the most fantastic people I've ever lived with, let alone just known. They never stopped making me laugh (they are quite "punny"), or in general just helping me think and sort through life. And then I moved in with four other wonderful gals in a house about 3 miles east...I guess I never realized that in the meantime... that little hiatus of living with Brad and Kate...some things changed in me. It's hard to describe exactly what happened -- why as I've been in my house with the gals for the past six months, I've just known that something wasn't right here for me. And even when I try to describe it to people all I can really say is that I guess I just am in a different stage of life that I thought that I was.
So, as I pack all my stuff back up to go back to Brad and Kate's...my sort of in between...growing grounds...something in me is hopeful in a weird way. I think it's because there are so many times in my life where I feel like nothing is happening...I'm not growing...there is no progress being made. And if I can't see progress in purpose in my life, I get really down. But I think that sometimes we don't even realize the deep works that God is doing IN us....behind the scenes...quietly. Growing us up. Preparing us for what's next. And in some ways, going backwards is the way forward...you realize that you don't belong in the past anymore. And that's refreshing.
Lately I've been praying that I won't stay in any season a day too long. And at the same time that I would embrace and soak in everything that each season provides for me. You can't go back. You only get to do each once.
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i've definately been in a season of reflection lately. it's so refreshing when we get a glimpse of growth. it helps in those seasons when things just feel stagnant and still. i also think that it is so freeing to move 'beyond' a season, recongizing the beauty and richness of it, but also the timeliness of a new season to come...
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